Taylor, from my own experience, I would guess that nothing but time can take the edges off your grief. We don't know each other, and reaching out across the web doesn't replace the love and care of family and friends - but I sincerely hope you heal soon and well. Many here have expressed their feelings - take strength from all who do, take strength from the life you own. Yours is a life to now make, at so tender an age. Bless you, friend. Paul