after having a very traumatic and tragic breakup with my wonderful love of my life, so hard to move on. very difficult. i do try, but its painful and cannot forget about everything we have been together, and what I had done for her. going through some papers today and saw a card from her that she gave me a while ago, saying that she is mine forever and thanking me for being there for her etc... - made me cry ! (im sorry) but since this emotional and tragic day about 1.5 months ago, she has put me in ALOT of trouble for something i didnt even do and she knows im not the type to either. now its the weekend again, i wonder what she is up to, who she is with, who is washing the love and touches we had together away. its sick and stupid, and she has 2 kids of her own. we were wanting to eventually get married (would be her 2nd time) and have a child of our own, but we really did enjoy everything. what went wrong? a minor dispute that i didnt like what she was doing in terms of contacting someone she had a fling with who had cheated on his partner at the time - not fair is it? That's all I said and nothing more, and she agreed a while back about this and understands, which is another reason why we fell for each other even more and so close too..... because of the wrongs of today's world and we talk about these things. it was a true genuine relationship with sincerity, then all this just makes no sense. im torn, depressed, on medication.... and i have no idea what to do and how to have a solid defence. i just miss her. we were made for each other (I know i know, alot of people may say it but we do know the difference between "lust" and reality) such a nice day too, and we usually would be together, and she would be at mine over the weekends.... but obviously not anymore, no contact from her and im not allowed to contact her anyway im sorry for blabbing on about this, but it is a difficult time and no where else to go or turn to, without people being judgemental. just wish i could get through to her, and she is a nurse too.... yeh, sure.... look how much she cares after what she has done. just makes no sense and never will. we both were right there, so complete and fed up of the way people treated us individually with our past, and this was a one committed genuine relationship. Now, nothing and im broken! I know "time is a healer" but... it was already hard for me to be with someone let alone for someone to like me, want me, love me.... and who looked great. Besides, i dont know how to go from here in terms of the trouble she put me in. very scary, and worried. and im a positive person generally with a different outlook on life (another reason why she fell for me)..... and now all that is just sucked away, taken my values and energy.
Exactly what sort of trouble did she get you in, that you're scared? And for some people, time doesn't heal. If you want to spend the rest of your life wallowing in misery, that's exactly what you're going to do. She probably contacted her fling for a reason. Things can be genuine and come to and end, too. I'm not denying that you guys probably had a wonderful relationship, but it's over now. Your flame in her heart has gone out. She's moving on, and you should, too.
if only it were easy. she even tried to contact him at the beginning of the relationship though as "friends", but then admitted that it is wrong to do so and would stop. but still then why mess me around when we both agreed we dont like being messed around? someone of her age (32) who has been divorced and had several bad relationships... you would expect them to be more mature
Its O.k mate, we have all been there. I know it hurts, and it might take you a while to get over this, but understand there is another girl out there for you!
You have to move on and do other things so you won't feel so lonely. Go out and make some friends, that'll make you feel better.