I'm sorry but if I really had this problem, I would go to my real friends and family relatives. Not posting it online.
So the funeral was yesterday.. and I'm feeling a lot better. I'm back working. I haven't even been on DP since the last time I responded to this posting. I'm happy I wasn't on here because I know the postings that Project Mobius said would have really broken me when I was already cracked. I will explain some things to you Project Mobius- 1. Writing is emotional. I write how I feel even with freelance writing. It's my whole life. And being sad or upset effects my writing thus it effects my job. 2. I posted that I'm a writer because I wanted to know what other writers did when things like this happen. I wanted to hear how they kept on writing if they did. Because it's such an emotional job. I wasn't sure what to really do and wanted advice. 3. I did talk to my dear friends. However they aren't self employed working freelance moms. My friends advice was personal and not business focused. Unlike the advice that alexispetrov gave me which was by the way perfect and basically what I ended up doing. 4. You call me weak because I'm emotional and asking people who also work online for advice. Don't you ask advice from others when you don't know how to do something? Don't you hire people to help you when you need help? It's the same thing I think. You also aren't in my shoes so you don't understand just how much the person who died meant and still means to me. Calling someone you don't know weak isn't very fair. Anyways.. thank you all for the positive vibes you gave me when I really needed it. It's nice to see there are so many nice and kind-hearted people on Dp. Chimica