I wanna die whenever it's my time ... dunno the hour, dunno the day. I'm always afraid of missing out on stuff, so I'll stretch this thing called life as much as I can (reminds himself to cut down on cigarettes)
Meditation really helped me through some tough times. Not w/ depression but with anger and my temper when I was in my early twenties.
But isn't it even more dangerous when you run out/low of/on medication that you've gotten too used to?
It's not the difficult 'ok yes it is' you just need to do it. I have been smoke free for almost 2 weeks now, put your mind to it, stock up on gum and small snacks to keep your mouth busy without the cigarette, start working out, etc and it's not as hard as it sounds. This coming from a former 2-3 pack 'or more' smoker for over 13 years..
It really all depends, sometimes I'm just busy and into something and don't even want to smoke for a few hours. Then I realize that I'm behind in work or something, and first thing I do is go for coffee and a cigarette to get ready to get busy.
If you realy want to quit a life style change is needed... I quit coffee as well, went from 4-6 pots of coffee a day to nothing No liquor as well in almost 2 months! No cigs in almost 2 weeks. It's possible but you gotta want to do it. I'll tell you one thing though, quiting smoking even for this short time, sure has me breathing easier, coughing less and more endurance at everything than I have had in ages. Plus saving enough money to damn near take a mini vacation monthly! It's a win win situation.
I smoke about 15/day now down from 2-3 packs. So to me it's a major step, but the "quit all together" thing is hard.
There is 5 boys in my class who smoke and one had to get a operation! He was my best friend. But he died The 4 remaining boys who smoke in my class are smoking 15 to 20 a day, using there dinner money for cigs! Making excuses to there mum and dad about how they need more money for there dinner.... I think Blogmaster you should try all your will to stop. Dirt dirty habit!!!!
Congrats on cutting down. Cutting down is the first step before quitting. Start doing massive amounts of cardio, something that gets your lungs pumping hardcore and you wont want a smoke It's been helping me out a great deal. I still do get urges, and am still fighting having one but so far I'm winning. If I can do it, I'm sure you and anyone else who wants to can as well...
Can't say suicide has ever seriously crossed my mind. Two things stop me even considering it: loved ones and the fact that I can accomplish much more with my life or death than just pulling a trigger.
Back to the original topic- I will be very depressed if the Bears lose on Sunday. I'm confident they wont but I remember how I felt after the playoff game in 2001 when they lost to the Eagles. The scene was ugly outside of the stadium. It took me a week to feel ok again. Hopefully I'll see a lot of this:
Yes, but sometimes you're so messed up that you think suicide is the only solution to your problems - but as some people relize, it isn't.
life is hard, but i dont even think about ending my life! I love myself, my family, and friends i want to stay long to this world, so, suicide never crossed my mind!