I used to be a well mannered, respectful, kid at one point in my life. I had things going for me. I would get straight A's, regardless if I studied or not, and I got things done done right and on time. I was a pleasant person to be around. Things then changed... For the worse. It started in 6th grade. I slowly started drifting apart from my good friends, and slowly moved towards to the more, "Just Fuck It" group. Within a month, my grades had suffered dramatically, I had lost basically all emotion towards others feelings. Every day, I was starting to give a shit less about how I treated other people, and how my actions affected them. The end of the 6th grade comes around, I went from an A student, to a D student. I didn't give a shit. I just shrugged it off and said , eh, no big deal, it's just middle school. 7th grade comes around. I am still the new me. The selfish son of a bitch. Things didn't really change much during this year. 8th grade comes around. Things are still going the same way as they were in 7th grade. No big change. 9th grade comes around. I just became even worse than before. I started failing multiple classes, and not giving a damn. I started slanging on the streets and in school. So now, I am already into drug dealing. My attitude just becomes worse. I am now in 10th grade and I have not changed one bit for the better. I have only gotten worse. I can be in the greatest mood of my life, and all it takes is someone to tell me something I don't want to hear, or command me to do something, and I just explode. I can be in happy pappy land then turn into the mother fucker that killed your whole family. I cannot control my anger that well at all. When I am angry, there is no calming me down, and if you try, I just get even angrier. I usually return to a calm state within 2 hours or so. My grades are horrible now, and I am a huge procrastinator. I am most likely going to have to repeat the 10th grade. Someone, please, give me a wake up call. I am willing to change. I know I said I am willing to change, but please, do not suggest therapy.
You need balance your life back Find yourself a hobby. A healthy hobby, listen to relaxing music not rock. Go around and friend people of course not same attitude as you. Do some volunteer work or understand another feeling. Buy some book and read.
Well its a point in your life where you should start getting laid and just relax, you are thinking too much :q
You will have to help yourself. Look for what motivates you. I suspect you are looking for inspirational writing - you will find plenty of good books to help you out. Self help books can help
Well, i would say that time is the biggest factor and everything will be fine as the time passes by Not only you everyone learns from his/her mistakes, the best wake up call would be the one when you are going to take your first step And yes, try to spend some time with your parents because they are your real helpers Hope this helps
The only way you can change things is to do something about it yourself. Go and study. No use sitting here wasting time when you could be bettering yourself.
Well, why don't you figure yourself out? Why are you angry these days? What was so important to you when you were younger that made you actually care? Sometimes some major life events make us stop caring.