Feeling very down:(

Hey, dont really want to go to indepth as to whats going on, but my health has taken a fair dip and i have another MAJOR problem in my life going on.

Feel very suicidal, not sure what i want from this thread just a rant really and any support is appreciated.

Dont know where to go from here and im only just 23.

 

when you feel down, you talk to your friends and family, not posting a thread in forums hoping to get sympathy, that's pathetic.

 

i have neither at my disposal, ive talked with family and most are against me or clueless what to do.

So what now big man? talk to my wall slit my wrists or come to the only places i have just now hoping someone can talk some rationality into me? I could stand to lose 180k next week money trolls like you will never encounter.

 

NO body here will be able to help you since you didn't put any details then just being sad. You got problems, deal with it. Life sucks and its unfair.

 

yes i dont know what kind of help i expect from here, but other than sitting and cutting myself what choice do i have but to hope post on some forums that someone might able to give me some glimmer that life isnt as shite as it is for me just now.

im in alot of trouble minus my chronic health problems. I could stand to lose near 200k to be seized next week which is the only thing keeping me living.

so what do i do just drink, take drugs and dig myself a hole really? because if im pathethic enough to post on a forum my problems obviously i dont have many options?

 

so i guess you must be the most unfortunate person on earth then, those in Haiti, Turkey, Japan, with their earth quakes, must be nothing compare to you. And i wonder how you got 200k when you are only 23

 

i got it from a slightly grey area business venture legal though so we'll see how court goes. Course theres people worse off than me big deal, there pathethic in your eyes also because your shit smells of roses. If i was in there case id be just as suicidal. Why assume i dont feel for them when ive donated good money to their cause have you? Course you havent there pathetic to you im not as self centred as yourself sadfully.

 

I want to help but you have to help me understand your situation. I can't give you my advice because I don't know the real deal with you. Whatever situation you are in right now, always remember to think clearly. Don't focus on the things that you don't have but be gratetfu for what you have. Don't let your fear or depression eat you out. Hope to get some more details so this thread can help you out...

Here's a poem for whatever its worth...

OH, GOD, FORGIVE ME WHEN I WHINE

Today, upon a bus, I saw a lovely girl with shining hair.
I envied her...she seemed so gay... and oh,
I wished I were so fair.
When suddenly she rose to leave,
I saw her hobble down the aisle.
She had one foot and wore a crutch,
but as she passed, she smiled
Oh, God, forgive me when I whine
I have two feet...the World is mine.

And when I stopped to buy some sweets,
the lad who served me had such charm,
he seemed to radiate good cheer,
and his manner was so kind and warm.
I said, "It's nice to deal with you, such courtesy
I seldom find."
He turned and said, "Oh thank you ma'am" and then I saw he was blind
Oh, God, forgive when I whine
I have two eyes... the World is mine.

Then, walking down the street I saw a child who seemed sad and blue.
He stood and watched the others play,
it seemed he knew not what to do.
I stopped a moment, then I said, "Why don't you join the others, dear?"
He looked ahead without a word and then I knew he could not hear
Oh, God, forgive me when I whine
I have two ears... the World is mine.

With feet to take me where I go,
with eyes to see the sunset glow,
with ears to hear what I should know,
I'm blessed indeed...the World is mine.
Oh, God, forgive me when I whine.

Author unknown

 

i like the poem thanks and cheers for the reply. I have been battling undiagnosed health problems for 6+ years going through alot of trouble. This is my main problem and why im suicidal but recently something i cant really talk about was a grey area business which has blown up in my face, the others who are running similar are ok but me being abit unlucky is getting picked on.

its like the icing on the cake, im feeling well past depressed, cant cope and really cant go on much longer.

thanks for reply though, atleast some around here have compassion for people going through a ruff patch. I lost all my friends if i had them to chat with i wouldnt be annoying you guys. Its easy when you have a crew of caring people around you but what happens when you dont, thats what that guy doesnt understand, obviously and overprivileged life gone to his head.

 

here's a poem for you, do you feel even better now? Chocolate is also a good anti depressant

So far two people have cared to reply your thread. Very loving community we have here.

Don't Quit
(one the most classic motivational poems)


When things go wrong as they sometimes will;
When the road you're trudging seems all uphill;
When the funds are low, and the debts are high;
And you want to smile, but you have to sigh;
When care is pressing you down a bit
Rest if you must, but don't you quit.

Success is failure turned inside out;
The silver tint of the clouds of doubt;
And you can never tell how close you are;
It may be near when it seems afar.
So, stick to the fight when you're hardest hit -
It's when things go wrong that you mustn't quit.

 

im on anti-depressants end of the day im not sure what your game is, if its to make me feel even worse ill just do myself in for you.

i came here for abit of hope alot of hopefull and people of faith here i though they might be able to offer there perspective. Whats your input other than making a man whos on the edge of wanting to die worse?

 

hmmm you bash me if i put you down, you still bash me when i'm helping what do you want me to do?

Chocolate helps fight depression, read this if you don't believe me http://www.msnbc.msn.com/id/33589896/ns/health-diet_and_nutrition/

If you want to die, call 911, they will help you.

 

i know all about chocolate and its serotonin and other mood alterting precursors and chemicals. Ive ate enough chocolate for a week i doub thats going to solve my problems.

i didnt bash you, your first post was that i was pathethic because i should be talking to my imaginary friends who have left, end of day nothing nice to say leave.

maybe find yourself a vagina as its plainly obvious from your posts you have never seen one ever? Your an invaluable poster if i may say.

i take it in that cancer dudes thread you just gave him abuse and shite too?

 

ok see you just insulted me saying i never got laid, like nintendo. OUCH! I'm hurt now and I am going suicidal

Cancel thread? hmm i don't remember sorry!

 

the difference between you given an insult then taking the mic out of the suicidal who of course dont have neurotransmitter imbalances or problems, all fine for high jane like you who has no problems wait till things get hard buddy and see your friends say piss off.

you've offered no insight other than abuse so ive got abusive back, your a sad guy end of the day prey on the weak, i may seem weak from my posts because im going through a time people like you will never come across. But one day i can only hope and you get a dose of your own medicine when your looking for abit of help somewhere rock bottom with nothing, someone is there to tell you there pathethic.

infact what if i didnt have a family to turn too, you are a complete tool, go search for your hole you 28 year old virgin no doubt or leave my thread to those nice enough here, every post i read from you is trolling or giving people grief, why the self defense mechanism why feel the need to approach in this manner, i know because you havent seen a hole in your life time am i right?

too much computers and no vagi correct?

 

yup you are absolutely correct i'm a 38 year old virgin!!! I have never seen a vagigi

 

haha much like i thought, im glad for your honesty here is a poem.

you will always be a virgin
this is ok you are a tobey
a troll who has no eye for goal
shrunken peni no dreameys

taking a look of your profile you just abuse everyone, you seem quite a sad man, look deep in yourself no one twats about giving everyone shit for no reason they either have a small penis or major problems.

do you have the small peni? is this why you come to my thread whilst im on deaths door causing trouble? are you the small peni master? I mean sheesh you in canada you should be smoking glorious dried weed but your penis wont grow that way.

edit:most would report your posts but i mean im the sort of guy you talk with me like you have in public and we'd see how far a small peni master goes. But your a keyboard troll of course abuse those who arent near you. Fair small penis complex(SPC) can cause this.

 

so if you are really on death's door, how come you still have the time and mentality to keep on replying?
And your insults are getting more entertaining, much better than the threads i see posted by noobs in the adsense forum.

 

when you get cancer or other diseases you dont just die on diagnoses fool.

course im here to provide a troll entertainrment your reply has just proved that. How come your still here i dont know, your an utter waste of air, typically a guy who has never been to a party, the one who was last in gym class, never touched a nice vagi let alone prodded one with his dingaling. Which brings us to our next lesson to be sat at your PC racking up 4k of posts giving people less fortunate abuse who are you lol. What happened during your childhood did someone stick a jalepeno up your ass?

you were bullied werent you, come on own up its happened to the best of us?, although 99% of us learn to treat each toher with abit of respect and move on but not you BAM i got a computer i can hide and give people abuse and i wont get a wedgie from ole samson in the changing rooms.

you have no bollocks sir, find your penis take off the shrink wrap?

 

i never said you would die on diagnoses, when did i ever say that? I'm here because i'm bored at work. Yea you got all of them right and yes I was abused when I was a kid.

Wanna group hug? You wanna take my shrink wrap off my small penis?